Do you have an ideal image that you want to imitate? Do you set clear standards when you make a decision to copy what your “ideal image” would do? Some may list renowned & famous successful people. Others may mention a character in movies (like Dwight from the Office). For me, since I had become “independent”, I have one clear image that I am always chasing. I keep saying it here and there… it is the saying: [I am trying to be someone whom I wanted to meet when I was a child].
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I had a pretty rough childhood. I thought that there was no way out when I faced the harsh reality. I wanted to “meet” someone who could “salvage me up”, yet my surroundings were way closed. It looked shiny outside. Inside, not so much. I soaked myself in books to find “someone” instead of looking for someone outside. Naturally, the accumulation of reading “created” the ideal image of whom I wanted to meet in my childhood. Now, I want to be the “someone” to whoever feeling the same way as I did when I needed great help.
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This goal hasn’t changed at all, yet my mindset has changed a bit. I thought I had to be “powerful (successful)” to be “the someone” who can help others. In fact, I can be someone’s help by sharing what I have received: Sashiko. Therefore, I am here, wishing that my words, our Sashiko, and how we approach reality via stitching can be someone’s help. Sashiko is merely “stitching”. For a majority, it is no more than a “hobby”. However, I hope they realize that there are “people who spent all of their lives in Sashiko”.
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先日19日は、妻の誕生日でした。日々妻に似てくる娘と3人で誕生日を祝いつつ、「お母さんのようになりたい」という言葉の最高のプレゼントが飛び出すという、素敵な1日を過ごすことができました。「なりたい誰か」はきっと誰にも存在していて、それは著名人だったり、何かのキャラクターだったり、身近にいる尊敬する人だったり。日々の判断基準がこの「誰か」に準えている人は、やっぱり芯があってカッコいいなと思います。
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私にとってのその「誰か」は、「子供の頃に出会いたかった人」です。苦しかった時に出会えなかった、でも本を読む中で自分で作り上げた「誰か」です。この「誰か」になるためには成功してお金も必要だと昔は思っていたのですが、漸く気がつきました。自分に与えらたことに真摯に向き合うことで私も「誰か」に慣れるんだなと。刺し子を通して、そんな「誰か」になれたらいいなと思っています。
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