I am not strong at all. I try to be strong, but I am not. There is only so much that I can carry on.
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I feel the pain almost everyday. This is the pain of someone repainting who I am (what I grew-up with). Those who stab me with a smile tell me it isn’t so painful. I want to be a Story-Teller in Sashiko & Japanese Culture. I try to be as “objective” as possible. However, I am a human – with emotion. I am not strong at all.
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Last 6 days, as I learned more about what is going on in this trend, I really realized where I stand now. I couldn’t stand up. I couldn’t stop crying. I couldn’t eat. I didn’t realize how much (emotional) blood I was bleeding.
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I welcome anyone to enjoy Sashiko. I really want you to enjoy it. “Freedom of choice and Art” is a valid concept. I respect that. However, please know that one’s “joy” may be someone’s pain. Please don’t justify yourself with your own value – especially if you are in a privileged group. What you think is “right” with complete innocence may be stabbing someone’s heart. Sashiko isn’t someone’s “trend”.
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よく2年間も毎日の投稿続けてきたなぁと振り返った所で、壊れました。ご心配頂いていた方からは「”少し休みます”って言ってから休みなよ」ってアドバイス頂いていて、「休まないもん！」って意地を張った所でポキっと折れました（笑）
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壊れたと書きましたが、元々壊れているので、ヒビが大きくなった程度にご理解頂ければ幸いです。水はまだ入ったままなので、これ以上ヒビが大きくならないようにエポキシ剤で丁寧に修復しながら前に進みます。
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