Sunday morning. It was such a week. I lost about 350 followers since I talked about “privilege”. It means my posts created a lot of discomfort. It also proves how ignored it can be.
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I am an ordinary person. So yes, the number of followers makes me happy when I get more, and makes me sad when I lose them. However, being famous isn’t my goal, Publicity is just a means to make my dream happen. Therefore, “Who follows this account” is much more important than how many follows. Although it isn’t my intention to create discomfort, I write what I have to write to protect my identity. Thank you very much for all the DMs and comments, and keep following me here even in the discomfort I create.
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I am an ordinary father. So yes, I would like to provide a better life to my family by making more money. I know I can get a lot more money by “offering what they want to hear” in this trend. However, then, what to tell my daughter when she faces her identity? To be “clever” and “(fake) nice” to be a winner? Winning in what? She will need to learn where she is from one day. I would like to leave my words for her – which I cannot summarize into my living will and she isn’t ready to receive, so I hope she will read this account one day. Money is very important. Money can prevent/avoid many unfortunate things. However, for me, “how to use money” is more important than “how much I have”. Is it idealistic? Yes, I admit. Am I bluffing? Maybe, because I want money, too. But, being mindful, I don’t need much “stuff” to make myself happy. Happiness is something we realize – not to convince ourselves to be, nor even buy with money. Thank you very much for your time helping me here to realize it.
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とんでもない一週間でした。これまでも様々な誹謗中傷は受けてきましたが、なかなかに酷かったです。英語を読まれる日本の方からの心配の声、時には代理でブチ切れて頂いている声等を頂いて、本当に心強いです。僕の思いは日本人の、ほんの一部の声です。代弁しているなんてこれっぽっちも思っていない。それでも、同じ価値観を共有する日本人の方から、「同じ方向を見てるからね」と見守って頂けているからこそ、前に進めています。ありがとうございます。やってる事は孤軍奮闘っぽいですが、でも一人じゃない。ずーっと独りだったからわかるんです。握ってくれている手がそこにあることを。詳細は今週どこかで配信でお伝えしますね。
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